So far I've been to [an old road]. I've met two other cats already. I do not know their names, I'm too insucure to ask. What if they hate me? Will they judge me for my looks? My body aches, if I ever see Frost again I'll make sure he'll never be able to do anything like that again. The black tom looks a lot like Sprite, he even seems nice. Maybe I can talk to him. I'm not sure about the female, she reminds me of momma, she gives off that same "I don't want you around" vibe.
I might just slip away, I hope neither of them notice me. I don't know what I would say of they spoke to me. I guess I could say "Hi." and "I'm Raven." but it seems so... easy. Way too easy, easier than it really is. I want to say those words, but I can't for some reason.
Look at them, they seem so perfect. I hate perfection. At lest this road isn't so perfect looking. I might go mad again. I wish I could learn to control my implusive actions when it comes to perfection. Maybe I'll work on that... Who knows, maybe now will finally be the turning point of my life?Ha, yeah right...
Post by Raven Soulreaver on Aug 7, 2008 0:33:43 GMT -5
So my frist few days here on this earth in this area alone haven't been as bad as a though. However I'm still deeply shaken from what happened to me before. It's hard dealing with pain by yourself. I wish Sprite was here so much, he could help me. Even Frost... Though what he did to me I can't hate him. I loved him. He made me feel accepted. I'm glad I'm just not pregnant. After meeting Osprey, Serin and Wolf on the old road I left and went to be alone [In the woods]. However I found myself not so alone. A tom by the name of Alcander Blackpaw appeared almost out of no where. At first I was scared, upon seeing his mostly white coat and crystal blue eyes it reminded me so much of Frost.
I wanted to run but this tom, he was not Frost. However he was just as frightening. I believe something to be wrong with him mentally, he says he has voices. I wonder what kind of disorder that is, hearing voices inside your head, perhapes multi-personality disorder? Kind of like that old human story of Mr. Jeckle and Dr. Hide. Or was it Dr. Jeckle and Mr. Hide?
Ah, whatever, well let's hope he keeps his word when he says he wont hurt me. I know I shouldn't put too much trust in another tom so quickly but he seems like he could use a friend as do I... Who knows maybe this time I can actually have a healthy relationship with another cat... Maybe. Well see.
Post by Raven Soulreaver on Aug 7, 2008 0:56:44 GMT -5
After my incounter with Alcander I retreated back toward the human town by the old road. I found myself [in a dark ally]. I was glad to find food in those cold silver cylinders, trash cans I believe Humans called them. I'm glad they wheren't so smooth and clean, or else I might have gone mad again. I was surprised however when another cat showed up. At first I though it might have been Alcander, but much to my distress it wasn't. Not that I hoped it was Alcander. Meeting another cat, anew was stressful. Let another another tom. He introduced himself as Rowan Brokendaze. I found this tom amusing, he was sweet and charming. However I stayed catious I wouldn't fall into a trap like I did with Frost. After all he had been sweet and Charming as well... Oh well we'll see what happens, so far so good.
Post by Raven Soulreaver on Aug 7, 2008 0:59:27 GMT -5
After eatting in that ally with Rowan, I found my paws taking me into . I don't know why I would return here, maybe a part of me longed to be here again... Nah. Anyways I was surprised when I passed a tom I reconigzed when first coming here. Wolf.